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i know a friend, or more like, i used to know this friend. this friend, however, seemed to be separated from me, by some invisible yet not so invisible barrier. this friend is someone that i thought i knew but not so much now.

i hope, a lot, that things will turn better probably at the end of this year? should i take the first step? im afraid things will go wrong after taking the first step. why is it so difficult? why must he/she make things difficult for me then? isnt it better to just leave in peace and harmony?

maybe i really should take the first step. i've trusted this friend, i've lived with this friend. it's not that i've lost trust in him/her, is that whether he/she has even trusted me in the first place.

i hope something will rekindle this friendship within, i do know he/she isnt that bad afterall.

i hope you'll back me up.

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im shy, and tend to keep things to myself. i dont show people the other side of me cause i keep it within. im afraid of the world. im afraid of many things. build =/= who i am. im very ordinary. i cant imagine when things get out of hand and poof! everything starts, everything ends.

sometimes i wish the world would end today so i can run away from my troubles. yet that's a very cowardly way to escape from the problems i have. i wish you can save me now.

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Anyone who doesnt believe in miracles is not a realist.

The greatest victory has been to be able to live with myself, to accept my shortcomings and those of others.

-earlgreyparty