it's my birthday today!

it's a rather wet day :( heavy rain early in the morning till afternoon. i think it has stopped already? yay :) i'm thankful to all the friends i have who wished me happy birthday! it's great to have them around :)

smile smile smile smiles.

today marks my birthday. it also marks my last day of work!

first emotion: yay! (end of work, money comes in, tomorrow sleep in! :D)
second emotion: a little longing feeling :/

my colleagues are quite nice people especially my seating neighbour - helen. she always offers me food. haha it makes me fat! and she tells me stories and all. apparently she doesnt remember me sitting beside her during CNY at uncle Alan's place! i believe she'll see me next year :)

and mas. although i dont really like releasing BOs throughout the day, she's still nice. she asked me how i was coping with the work and what i had for lunch etcetc. like those super random but heartwarming questions.

ANYWAY THIS SUPPOSED TO BE POSTED ON MY BIRTHDAY BUT INTERNET SCREWED IT UP SO IT'S A LATE POST. BYE :D

another lesson learnt: if you need help, seek help. stop being so stubborn thinking you can do it by yourself as a way to prove to others that you are smart and not stupid.

do you think this blog needs PICTURES???????

i believe the answer is yes. i'll try to get pictures of my life or prolly from tumblr/lookbook/deviantart?? i know it's too simple white. colours are very much welcomed.

oh brother...

i am very lazy to touch up on the layout of my blog. :/

there's this saying: the future is yours to make.
so true right? future is yours to make, but the process is tedious. if you are willing to sacrifice 3/4 of your lifetime crafting it, then the future you aspire will come true. and that's what everyone's doing because there's no other way to do it.

in life you're bound to meet obstacles. they will create problems in everyway they can, emotionally, mentally and even physically. it's how you deal with these obstacles that let you around them. i chose to step back, and even further. so now i'm asking for a second chance. a second chance to compensate my move, to correct my mistakes.

i got it.

but im asking for a better one. whether or not i'm given ( i do hope i get it) this second chance, i believe i know which way to take it and whether or not will i let obstacles push me down and make me never stand up again.

the choice is yours, is mine. ours. let's do what is best for ourselves.

the amount of effort i see her put in makes me guilty as i didnt put in as much as she did when i had my june holidays last year. what's wrong with me?

why do people procrastinate, only to regret when things dont turn out the way they want it to be?

hence, please, (to brain)
study for FTT and pass. seriously must pass. you must start making proper preparations whether or no the issue is minor or major.

and i gotta pack my room. it's dusty though i did wipe. it's messy. i cant stand it but somehow i can live with it. strange much? lol.

the day i go changi with you, will be the day we sit by the shore and watch the sunset :)

awesome.

being in the real world is seriously hard reality.

#1 suck it up. not suck up but suck it up. like it or not, you cant complain. complain and receive the sack. everyone else is doing the same. just that some pushes more work to you. so the kind ones get bullied. thus, :(

#2 almost everything is based on meritocracy. which sucks. people with interests in certain job scope cannot excel as they are not able to attain the grades expected.

#3 you just gotta work hard. work until your soul collapses but you still have to continue. it's just life.

#4 flexibilty. being rigid will end you nowhere good. adapt and adjust to make the environment a better place for you, and maybe, for others.

#5 you work for yourself and not for others.

#6 there is vast difference in the way one thinks between males and females.

#7 things progress too fast that humans are trying to catch up with the pace.

#8 the world is collapsing (because of us).

#9 we sit in front of computer screens and type away like zombies.

#10 when will we (really) enjoy life?

i managed to sell 1 piece of my brand new clothing! happy me~

i hope i can sell the others so my bank wouldnt be sooo dry ): i've spent too much on clothes! trying to sell them and earn some hard cash back!

im in the midst of writing my appeal. i hope it does impress the board of appeals although i know my chances are very very slim.

hope. believe. faith.

i want to go overseas with him and see the awesomely beautiful scenery of nature. we must go to spain and UK so he can see his spain and arsenal teams woohoo... this is so random. this is called, bored at work.

if only the world didnt have this thing called, 'comparison'.

some have to work hard to earn it, but eventually didnt after working hard cause they had to sacrifice their own. some didnt have to work hard to get it. some worked hard to get it, and got it eventually not because they worked hard but cause others just wanna give.

which category do you fall into?