290208

today marks the day of a leap year.



i got my crumpler today, $100 flew away. haiz, i dont know what happened. like i've said, no peace. i think the sky actually depicted my thoughts on my way home today.


i was on my way home, just a street or two away to my house.



then the sky was this dark. see that black line with a shade of purplish blue? that's the clouds.

taken above my neighbour's house. ridiculously dark.

this was the colour of the sky. the houses couldnt be seen at all. my estate was blanketed with darkness. i sense a storm brewing ahead. what kind of storm will it be?

sigh, sigh, sighs. actually when i was in the mrt, i was looking out of the cabin, thinking of whatever thoughts u can think of. i wanted to talk to someone but i dont know who to turn to. damn myself for being so oblivious to my surroundings. damn myself for not being able to cheer one up when one is down. no one ever noticed it, but i find myself a worthless brat, a good-for-nothing and is just someone there to fill up an empty space on Earth.

emo, im sorry.

contradiction,
dont feel inferior.

280208

it gonna be a 'great' week next week.

chem test on 3 topics, doomed.
physics quiz on 2 chapters, i can survive if i study and memorise.
ss test on sbq, i fail sbqs.
chem spa, doomed again.

what else?

february is ending and march is coming. march is a birthday month man. i have no idea and i do not wish to count the number of birthdays coming up. cause the number's too great. lol. but i hope i've enough money to get your presents =x

im getting my crumpler tmr :D
IM HAPPY!! hahahaa,

more more, paramore :D

270208

today's a funny day :D

physics and chem was all right, just a disappoint with my results. haiz. as usual, as always. english was fine, just that i was freezing in the audi. however, the english session was not as boring as the other sessions. mrs shirley koh said that term 2 week 2 we will all go back to our own ag classes. i dont want to go back cause i really like mrs koh's teaching. in fact, in sec 3, i wonder what i had learnt last year.

e maths was the fun period. ms chen got a shock when she saw ms wong standing by the door and she jumped. really, jumped. then she mixed up black and bag and pronounced bag as black, vice versa. haha, and we had an oral-e maths session :D

assembly was all right. at least it was much more lively than the previous one. lol. after school was the usual supplementary. the teacher who taught us today was Ms Fiona Tan. lol. but it was still quite boring in the middle.

i shall stop here cause i've no idea what to write. lol.

you make the world a sweeter place(:

260208

great, i've lost my waterbottle, and the hook that i bought yesterday -.-
poor bottle. lucky i've not drawn on it. lol.

zits,
be gone.

250208

i feel freaking bad.
damn bad.
really bad.
and i apologise.

like i said, i shall fall and die.
it's always like this when reminiscence returns.

[2008 NEW YEAR RESOLUTION]

mid years
- english(3)

- hmt(2)

- e maths(2)

- a maths(2)

- chemistry(1)

- physics(3)

- combined humanities(3)

240208

today's a freaking warm day.
i have not done anything since friday, means, im slacking the days off. shit.

more things to worry about, im only left with 5 practices before doomsday arrives. and when that happens, i think i'll just die, die a horrible death. this is emo.

i tried, but it doesnt work out.
im sorry but it seems impossible.

JJ

u know,
I MISS GOING OUT WITH JJ!! not our school's jj. lol.
he doesnt believe im blogging about him but he's going to see his BIGBIG name here.
JIANGJUN<-- LOL.
im not used to calling him jiangjun. JJ sounds so much nicer, dont you think? hahahah :D

hope to go out with you soon :D

230208

today's a tiring day.

choir in the morning, not bad i should say :D that's a good sign. everyone was quite high after choir actually. there wasnt vocal training so i was able to leave with the rest. some people had flag day today. poor guys, they had to walk around asking people to donate. well i did donate :D 5 cents, im a kind soul. hahaha, im such a bad girl.

we went to Astons for lunch. as compared to last year's service, their service today wasnt good. the waitresses were giving us attitudes and we, of course, didnt like it. the food was still up to standard just that some things displeasured me.

then, the usual 3 guys went to get stupid. lol. soon's really a funny guy. really really hilarious! i cant stop laughing. there was this little girl, named Shannon i think(sorry if i've got the spelling wrong =x), she came to us and was smiling. she started with the guys area before coming to sandy and me. haha! the guys were, i dont really know how to explain in fact, all i know was i laughed a lot when she came over. she's about 1 or 2 years old anyway.

headed on to macs for more slacking and crapping. as usual, without soon but with shigeng and nigel, u still get crap. not a little bit, but a whole lot of crap. throughout the whole day, i laughed from 12+pm till 5+pm? wow.

i went for a jog after reaching home and i perspired a lot. a whole lot. and i think after my dinner, i didnt really felt hungry. most probably i was still full from lunch. i had yusheng for dinner, and just that. the delicious chicken wings that were marinated in honey and dont know dont know what, but i know there's honey were right in front of me. it was so tempting but somehow i didnt have the interest or appetite to eat it. poor chickens, i wonder if they are sad. -.- however, im eating them for lunch tomorrow so i bet they will be happy. lol. this is crap.

tired, fatigue, everyone deserves a long rest. long sleep to recharge one's body. sleep everyone, sleep. tomorrow's gonna be a new day, and a brand new week is ahead. let's just all face it with a smile :D

I tried to patch things up again
To calm my tears and kill these fears

220208

im dead tired.

today we had choices, social etiquette was so-so. we had to dress up and i didnt like the feel of it. i yawned and my stomach grumbled throughout the session though. zz.

english was okay, another compo to write for the teachers to mark. somehow, ideas dont come straight away. and the way to describe feelings, expressions, actions, they dont come immediately. i really wonder how others like clement can write such wonderful essays and it's like, a well-written piece of (roughly)2-3 pages essay, with so much descriptive phrases and i really admire his work at times. how to write such pieces then? the answer from the teachers: read more books and newspapers.

lol. mother tongue was writing, again. it was a reflection about edison chen's scandals and photos that were posted on the net, making him and his relations headlines in the newspaper for the past few days. today, after reading the newspaper, Life, i realized edison chen was a mixed blood! WOOTS. okay, that's erm, awful of me. he's quitting showbiz business and doing some self reflections about what he had done as he had admitted taking those pictures. poor guy huh?

today was quite a boring day and i dont know what im feeling so tired. i ate quite a late lunch, as usual. then dinner was horrible. i couldnt really eat but since my mom took the time to bring my bro and i out for dinner, i tried at least. i just couldnt finish my food. i find the school timing is such uneven and it drags on. the bioclock in us just keeps changing when it comes to lunch and dinner. most of us dont eat breakfast early in the morning and we eat during recess so yea.. it's lunch and dinner that really affect us. eating lunch late results in eating late dinner. on the other hand, for me, i eat less dinner. how in the world am i suppose to gorge the food down my throat when im on a full stomach? haha, besides, eating less, u know what happens :D

i think that :D's the first one in this post and the one in this sentence is the second. that's how bored, how low my spirits are. i never really like telling my mom, dad or my bro about exams coming up. they tend to stress. i mean, i know what im doing. they arent sensing that im trying my best and to the extend playing scales at home, they dont bother to ask when it is anyway until i said i wanna book a studio for practice. no one does(this refers to my family -.-) my life's screwed up.

a tan is seriously needed for me. i dont like the two colours on my hand, upper arm has a lighter tone as compared to the lower one. im still waiting for my topshop singlet(if that is called singlet) =x

i wonder what you are going to say,
cause that sentence sent me into freakness.
now im really wondering..

youth olympic games

congratulations to singapore in winning the bid to hold the Youth Olympic Games :D
they were cheering. lol. quite shocking huh?

210208

haha, it's someone's birthday today!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SWEET 16~
and yea, u are getting old.

today's a maths test, i screwed it up. gonna get a lecture from jiee D: im not sure whether i will even pass but i hope that i answered the trigo questions correctly.

the wind has been blowing these few days. many people's hair getting messed up. and skirts fly. hold on tight to your skirts before everything can be seen =x hehe

i dont know whether it's me who is in a foul mood or my fingers(both left and right hand) or the piano. i cant play my piece well. haiz, i'm left with less than a month. i cant imagine myself passing actually. but i wish i do.

and oh, the worse of the worse happened to me today. i dropped my phone. my precious sweetheart was dropped onto rough ground. the carpark area in school. oh man! so heartbroken. usually it's being saved by something for example, it dropped onto (was it)ken's bag and slided down to the floor. saved from being scratched. now, it has (i dont know how many) scars. i'll go buff it. lol.

im hungry.

today the spastic one on my right was really spastic. tsktsk =P

i admire that piece of work.
just one short paragraph,
expressive and fluent.
but too cheem -.-

200208

they played the game from morning till end of school at 2pm.
wonder if they'll continue it tomorrow.
english lesson was funny :D
someone said something hilarious yet retarded when i was eating. and that was gross. thanks -.-
______________________ went overboard. nice.
clement's english is really brilliant and his essays are espressive. a pleasure to read :D
english essay was so-so. didnt know what i was writing.
chem remedial was okay. but i felt really sore. as in, muscles were hurting.
they went stupid stupid again. i wonder what they did this time.
i felt idiotically tired towards the end of the day.
my mom isnt at home, so is my dad. wow
i drank a lot of water today and i am still drinking.
i was starving and ate a lot for dinner.
crap.

i need _______________.
i forgot it for a moment.
i always remember it whenever i open my organizer.
it was until he reminded me then it struck me.
should i?
after all, it's sweet 16..

how to save money?

with my current expenditure and expenses, how in the world am i suppose to save up to buy what i want?

that's why i need a job. but how to study at the same time?

and oh, i saw this guy in the bus on the way home. some be able to guess what im thinking about =P

let's save up slowly,
and i need some sleep.

180208

today's a half day for us! hahaha, quite a slack day. although other classes had much more slack periods. i dont really mind about the periods we had today. it was quite fine...

went to watch 'P.S I Love You' :D i find the sweetest part the time where he sent a voice recorder to her place and everything was planned before hand. a very sweet message and all the sweet stuff came after that. if only there was such a person on earth =x

rewind back to the time we had lunch, huiwen, belinda and cheryl anne were quite hilarious today. jokes and riddles sent us all bursting into laughter and some really hilarious moments.

i just love the people in 4E'08 :D laughter is forever there. really, forever. i cant help sometimes but to think back about all we had done and smile. yea, smile to the things, the silly things we said before that really brought laughter, joy and tears to us. okay, this is getting too emo =x

taiwan street snack's XXL crispy chicken is tasty ever. must must try :D

i felt like getting a crumpler all of a sudden. it just struck me. and i thought of working after O's. but.............................. *sighs*

yea,
i feel like getting a crumpler.
am i going nuts?

170208

as i've said,
it's yet another unhappy day.
they come after you, one by one. soon, you'll just drown in its depths and be gone forever.

i dont like saying these things u know,
but im pulling it back.
you know i never like to _________________________.

160208

this was taken at the beach. it's a random thing :D


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HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY :D

isnt this sweet? hahaha.

my valentine's day presents! thanks all, simply sweet :D

oh, some are missing. like my brownies and two hershey's kisses. i ate them =P

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this was taken at my ah ma's sister's place.

her niece's daughter(who is my niece?) :D sweet isnt she? she's a joy to all, thanks to her smile :D


on my way home, i took this picture. can u see that puff of cloud that shaped like a heart?

the bat that hangs around at my home.

thanks to jieee for correcting my mistake. hahaha.

140208 - happy valentine's day

happy valentine's day :D

everyone received presents! haha, and i did too.
i received 12 presents, wahaha. thanks for all the presents anyway, haha.

off for now. got things to do.

happy one year old to my dear blog :D

my efforts are never recognized.
only his.

130208

to hell. to hell

TO HELL.

120208

today was quite a day.
studies aside, let's talk about some other things.

today, i realized, saiful(from 4E) is a good brother, good friend and totally sweet. really. whatever he said filled me and i bet, others, with envy. totally sweet, no words to describe. just felt that if that really happens, it's very touching.

some things, are worth to think twice. some things can just be forgetten. however, i cant help but to ponder over something for months and the outcome is as simple as abc. simple, yea, difficult to voice it out.

i seriously, d-o-n-t-k-n-o-w.

it is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves.

100208

it's the 4th day of cny. read from the newspapers, they had a statue of ah meng placed in the zoo. anyone wanna go have a look?

then at page 36 of the sunday times, it was a report on teenagers spending a large sum of money for the valentines on valentine's day. example, 99 roses in a bouquet, which cost about $700, as written in the news. quite awed and amazed that they actually went to the extent to book and order flowers and such. i cant comment much here as it's one's opinion on how he wanna make his valentine happy isnt it?

lastly, i hate going there. it's just a waste of time.

090208

i got my biggest surprise last night.

i was "swimming" and watching shaolin soccer at the same time. then my phone beeped. it was a foreign number. guess who it was from.

IT'S DA GE!!! AHHH, MY CNY SURPRISE! LOLOLOL. your sisters miss your crap la -.- come back and bring fish from your fishing village. and i bet most guys in our class wanna fish =x

off to "swim" more. im losing madly.
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ah meng the orangutan had passed away. to think when was the last time i've actually seen her. shows how much i actually visited the zoo.

maybe i shall make a trip to the zoo, birdpark and night safari. deprived, am i?

rip,
ah meng

blog's birthday:D

hohoho!
my blog's birthday is exactly 1 week away!

1 year old, hmmm. should i get something for it? haha

what a day

070208

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ALL :D

it's the first day of visiting and im feeling really really tired. we didnt set out as early as the past years. in fact, i dont really have the festive mood in me. lol. and i dont know why. lost 3 dollars playing blackjack with cousins. haiz, i was winning at first. and then lost all. never underestimate the cards u gonna get, they kill. hah.

i think i gonna mahjong tmr night like i did last night. that's why im freaking tired. since the eve of the eve of new year, i didnt sleep on time (which is 11pm). i slept later than usual and i believe i can sleep sitting down right at this moment. lol.

i've got another organisation to carry out. congrats me.

i dreamt that we stood in a circle,
as we held those slips.
tore them slowly and at the count of 3,
we read the contents.
shrills of laughter
and tears of joy were seen and heard the very next moment.
i wonder if this will come true.

060208

it's the eve of chinese new year! woots :D

we were quite entertained since morning. the classrooms were locked in the morning so almost everyone went to the canteen while we waited for the morning assembly song to start before heading towards the plaza. haha, morning was fun man. sitting in the canteen with yc and jiamin and the rest slowly came. i dont know why but this morning, i felt really really hungry. munching on my toast, we chatted and soon started the entertainment. he was stirring his coffee and i guessed he was talking to someone. he didnt realized that his coffee had spilt and everyone was laughing madly.

the time passed and we assembled in the plaza for the flag raising ceremony. back in our classes(finally the doors were unlocked), the usual people gathered in the class and there we were, chatting. wahaha. wesley came with another funny thing. the moment he stepped into class, he started scolding and out came a vulgar word. everyone was looking at him with shock.

this was what he said, ".... other people take bus 135 can be excused, i take bus 197 cannot! **** him la!"

then some guys were curious of what happened(concern?), they asked him what exactly happened. it appeared to be his mother who made him eat 3 slices of wholemeal bread in the morning before he could leave the house for school. since he could not finish them fast, he ended up coming late to school. it doesnt seem funny as to what i've written here right? haha, duh. when you hear him telling us what happened, i bet you will be laughing your heads off. cause we really had a good laugh, another happy occasion =x

ms chen came in somewhat later and all of us had a really good chat with her. the first thing she asked was about dage. LOL. she was so so so curious about the rumour and she thought he liked her while it was the other way round. then we jumped from topic to topic and we got wesley to tell ms chen the main thing about him being late. ms chen really had a good laugh about it too. she practically had a good laugh about whatever we crapped about.

the performance in the hall was boring in fact. nothing much. prizes here and there. edmund chen came to sing for us. that's about it.

some of us went to parkway to have lunch. supposedly to go to queenstown to order our jersey but seems like ms chen doesnt want us to order it today. the bus ride was kinda spastic with nigel trying to cross his arms the other way. upon reaching parkway, we didnt know what to eat and took quite a long time before coming to a conclusion of eating at kfc. haha, we were about to buy the prosperity meal when we realized, there isnt any drink included. lol. so we bought our own meals separately and somehow, this is the first time i ate without laughing so much. haha. and i think i saw someone outside kfc. and i think u know that im there. hahaa.

after lunch, we shopped around parkway and i still think that topshop has really wonderful clothes and JACKETS. woots, love topshop. haha. quite a tiring walk, not in the sense of legs but body. i was quite fatigue since morning cause i slept late last night. they then went to gelato to buy ice cream and the price was really, wonderful. an effect of eating gelato ice creams, the guys became "drunk". lol. it was really, ridiculous and hilarious. we headed on to the library while cheryl anne went home to help her parents with the reunion dinner tonight.

it had been long since i've stepped into the library. silence filled the library as it wasnt a usual school day. i found a book by Hailey Abbott, author of Summer Boys(woots :D) and started reading till 3pm and went home. that's all about what i've done since morning till now.

im just waiting for the dinner which is starting soon :D yupyup, soon! ahhaa

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR :D

everything's gonna be fine.

040208

i just merely stated, i dont have any new footwear for the new year. and there she went, flaring red, like i've did something that has caused a scar in her life and she will remember it forever. WTH?! what's your freaking problem man? it's just a sentence, simple and sweet. so? u go shop with me? wait for eons years i tell you. going shopping with you, is a no-no to EVERYTHING i choose. it's either, too ex, or it doesnt fit on you, or you dont like it. hello! it's ME here. MEMEMEMEME. not you! so yea, i dont have a pair of sandals. so dont complain on the first day, saying why im wearing old ones. CAUSE I DONT HAVE THE BLOODY TIME TO EXPLAIN TO YOU WITH U REBUTTING AT ME WITH YOUR DAMN LOGIC. and it's logic that makes no sense to anyone else but yourself. thanks so much.

it's suppose to be a wonderful and happy day for me in fact. a really happy day. till that damn screaming came from no where, thanks to a statement! FINE. i shall not say anything since whatever i say, u just argue. what's the point of telling you whatever i feel, think, or do? i just get scolded for nothing i've done whether it's right or wrong. even for one paper i've sat for O's last year, what kind of stupid questions u two ask me. "Is there a higher grade than this?" or "Like that only ar?"

what do you expect from me?! i've been trying to score better than that boy upstairs, who studies and PLAYs at the same time. u two praised him to the heavens and were on cloud nine. i feel like im just a replacement piece of shit for him whenever he isnt at home. like what? next year. then u gonna compare my results with my cousins and others or brag about the one i've gotten for O's last year. so? what difference does it make? u stand on higher ground? u become renowned among the relatives? grandma and grandpa will be proud of you? HELLO, it isnt u who made me achieve these grades. as if u gave me moral support. as if u helped me with my work. as if u knew i took the paper. and yea, this is the kind of life i get.

tk won chai chee, a victorious game. loads of cheering and some things arent meant to be said. the person should know and change ____ attitude. still, congratulations to the team. u all have done us proud :D

i cant be bothered typing further before i start venting my frustration through this single post which was meant to be a happy one.

dead,
and gone with the wind.

paramore

paramore's the love :D

a lot of things had been going on. it may seem peaceful on the surface but in fact, things are going on without you knowing. and u feel so _______ upon hearing that things have been going on. haiz. it's life, what can u expect?

life just gives u what it gives you. u have no say.

love paramore :D

i wanna do a lot of things,
lots and lots of things.
when will time give me grace to go?
when will school give me the freedom to go without worrying about homework or studies?

010208

it's the 1st of feb.

school was brilliant since morning. it's a really slack day today. ce and pe was all out. english was okay, at least it wasnt all talk. lol. maths, quite okay la, just that there's homework =( haha, ms chen happened to end at 11.30am. we were supposed to be dismissed at 11.40am. everyone was looking forward to it until the fire alarm went off. thanks ar tk -.- perfect day to have the drill, early dismissal, loads of time to spare. in the end, we were dismissed around 11.45am. haiz.

some of us stayed back to do the board and ms chen came to help us. ohoh, we know her age. hahaha, quite young huh, in fact, is really young. not say very recent but graduated from tk a few years back only. *wow* quite a long time we took just to cover up the whole board. but the overall result IS nice :D from far that is. hahaha, kinda love the board although the colour doesnt go with the chinese new year theme. who cares? =P

it poured halfway while we were doing the board and it continued even after we finished. slacked for a while before leaving school with belinda, huiwen, shigeng, soon, yash and wesley. and we all walked in the rain :D lol. quite nice to walk in the rain, despite the fact of getting wet. we were heading towards the venue of the annual road run at ecp when i received a call from dajie saying that the run has been cancelled and there isnt a need to go take attendance. woots! wahahah, i bet most of us(tksians) cheered. i think they will have to hold the run on another day, means .... wahaha.

so the 6 of us, except yash who went home, went to have lunch at parkway where we met quite a number of tksians. cheryl anne was there! haha! with her other netballers. had pastamania for lunch and i agree that the meatball pasta isnt delicious. the meatball tasted weird. really weird.

after lunch we wanted to play pool and saw another group of tksians, mainly soccer members. didnt play in the end because of the member thingy and ended slacking and letting time fly. after belinda and soon left, the rest of us went to tioheng to sing. lol. hahha, huiwen sang the most. the other two guys, heck whatever they were doing =x then shigeng accompanied huiwen and i for dinner by walking all the way down to upper east coast road. some walk it was, but it had been long since i've walked so much.

i intended to walk home from there but it started raining cats and dogs again. had to take a bus ride home instead. however, i did walk in the rain :D because i didnt call my maid to bring the umbrella out to shelter me. wahhaa, and i really love walking in the rain. something that we all need to enjoy, things like walking in the rain.

came home and watched the remaining hour of shark attack 3. a very lame and animated show. very fiction-like and not realistic. and i think it's a really old show from the looks of it.

now, i just feel like sleeping.

some things are not worth it,
they are not appreciated.