esplanade!

hmm.. choir was okay today. marcus came.. he led us for choir today. a new set of warmups were introduced.. that's cool.. hahahaha. binnama.. though we somehow managed to keep our timing steady.. i still feel some rushing within the choir. the singing.. the actions and stuff. hmmm..? keep our timing steady choir.. 3 more weeks.. and we will achieve what we always wanted. we will get our prestigious gold with honours!!

i went with sandy to tampines mall to meet her godma and godpa. her godma so cute.. hahaha! we ate long john silvers.. lalala~ then we wanted to watch bean's holiday.. but the tickets were RUNNING OUT! and it was getting late so we went to esplanade library. sandy wanted to see it.. we stopped at this particular place where dancers practiced their dance, cyclists practiced their stunts, etc. they were so cool! hahahahah!(:

we went to esplanade library. it was so cold inside. searched for scores and more.. i found so many disney love songs and theme songs! so nice! i so want to play them! BUT! the library didnt allow me to borrow:( SO SAD! nvr mind.. gonna make another trip there man! i will and i MUST! hahahahaha!(:

then sandy had to leave cause she's meeting her grandma.. rush rush rush. hahaaha! i then went to buy starbucks coffee(: hehehehe.... i went finding the bus stop to take a bus home.. I WAS ALMOST LOST! it's so complicated! but i found my way... hahahha!

i played piano for an hour! OH MY! first time! one hour without stopping. one hour just sitting there and keep playing... i may try sitting there and perfect my other pieces man... that will take.. 3 hrs?! WOOTS! i went running after that.. it was so shiok... hahaha! no heat just breeze and perspiration(:

then i watched THE EXORCIST OF EMILY ROSE. it''s so SO scary!!! but nice(: she's so poor thing.. i shall not go into details. =x

using the compuer = playing games.
wow,
what a statement.
what a conclusion.

summer's over:(

summer now, then and gone.
say goodbye to the skin man.
say HELLO TO THE NEW ONE(:

i gonna miss u skin:( (sounds wrong)..
i will remember you..
dont fret(:

finding nemo

it has become so often ever since.
searching for nemo now and then.

i think it goes like this:
nemo and i were enjoying ourselves(somewhere. lol)..
then suddenly.. nemo disappeared..
and i become emo.. cause it's emo[n]emo.
so i have to find nemo so i wont be emo anymore!
if that is so, why in the world did i mention dory?! LOL.

if u understand what this post is talking about, i salute u. cause.. i dont quite understand what im typing. lol -.- x100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000

oh yay..
the sun's out.
the rain's gone.
and happiness is filled once again(:
oh, how i love this so....
be like this forever man.
and i will love this forever.............

today.. 300307

seems like im not going to change my blogskin yet.. cause I SIMPLY LOVE THIS BLOGSKIN!(:

choir was FUN today(: i just so love u. hahhaha! we went to siglap south cc for our practice today in the afternoon. in fact.. i was kinda tired. maybe not 'kinda' but VERY! oh my.. my whole body was swaying during the warm-ups.. and my head was hurting badly:(

we sang the three pieces for syf and it was okay.. just that the volume seems thin cause of the acoustic in the hall... that was the FIRST round.

after around 5-10 minutes break i guess.. we had round 2! this time's different. the first one we sang in our own sections. 2nd round.. BREAK UP!(oh im so heartbrokened, NOT! hahahaah(:) we were made to stand in quartet position and i ended up standing beside ivor on my left, with zi yi beside him, lionel on my right, and siyu directly in front of me.that's so surrounded by guys.. and ivor's a blaster.. he drowns people. LOL. well it's fun.. the actions were mixed.. the mixed positions made u focus on your notes, actions and stuff.. together with lots of concentration. blahblah.. OH! we were made to lie on the floor and sing binnama.. IMAGINE IT! it was sososososos tough.. i felt the area around my jaws tensing up.. shoulders too.. yadayadayada.. but overall, it's FUN!

how i love if choir was to have such practices everytime.. hahahah! but it's kinda impossible. hahaha.. once in a while is worth it man(:

after that the rest went home and sandy and i went to pp for yoshinoya..we were famished! after eating sandy tried folding the straws into a heart.. i was watching her till i almost fell asleep. i was really really overcomed by fatigue... my head was nodding away until she went, "Don't sleep! Wake up! Wake up!" hahahaha.. sleepyhead(:

i went to the library after sending her off onto bus 16. hah.. there i met JJ.. has always been.. LOL! hahaha.. not always.. just 2 days ago. hahahaha! study study study.. i revised a.maths there.. only alpha and beta(quadratic functions) -.- JJ left early with his mom to go eat dinner.. HE SO GOOD! went to marina to eat!!!! i think i've not been there yet.. hmm.. that's why.. one country i MUST tour around is SINGAPORE. hahahahah!

I WANT TO WATCH BEAN!!!!!!

why is it always here?
why is it that im happy in school..
happy outside but not at home?
why must my happiness disappear
whenever I return?
and why cant u all just understand
the way i study, work and play?
everyone has their own way
of studying, working and playing.
you have your way,
so do I.

the whole week's events

the past 2 weeks were fine. one thing i realized though... THERE ARE A LOT OF MARCH BABIES!

glenn, wen xin, lemuel, zhafri, jamie, jian yong, my cousin kelvin, kang wei, tiffany, charis, humaira, JJ, darren(hws), etc, etc.

SEE! so many!!!! omgomgomgomg.

then there's the games carnival.. my class didnt win anything.. only table tennis got into finals that's all.. it's ok(:

NETBALL certainly rocked. it's just so fun! to jump and catch the ball.. to run around.. to jump again! hahaahah! it's a fun sport after all.. though the training's tough. =x

hmm.. sat.. was it sat? yea sat, 240307, sandy and i went to suntec city's carrefour. we asked JJ to come along. hahaha! he looked so blurr.. hahaha! to think we dragged him along with us to buy pants =x hahahah! fun right? can wear sunglasses somemore.... shiok! hahahaha! then we drank starbucks... thanks for the treat JJ! ahhaha! next time sandy and i treat u(:

choir.. as usual.. just that choir gave attitude to mr u-know-who on sat. seriously, they cant stand him. mr kwei's the best(: I LOVE U MR KWEI! hahahaha! the songs are almost there i think. almost. work on it TKCHOIR! we can do it! get GOLD WITH HONOURS!(: and of course.. BEST SECONDARY SCHOOL CHOIR! hahahah!(:

to think im writing this blog post.. with a pissed mood. dam emo now. was actually dam high. i get scoldings for NOTHING. it's damn irritating. why cant i be happy EVERYDAY?! why cant i follow my motto? why WHY? i wanna be happy! i wanna laugh! i wanna smile everyday.. anywhere.. anytime! why must there be sadness? why cant it just be happiness in the world? why must the world be filled with different emotions? why can i be happy only in school and sad at home? why why why?! i've got infinity whys to ask.. but no one can give me a perfect answer. cause the questions asked have so many answers to them.. thus, there is no definite answer.

im damn pissed.
im seriously tired.
im seriously sad.
i seriously wanna be happy.
i wanna be happy all my life.
why cant they talk to me like friends?
why cant they treat me like a friend to them?
why must they nag so much that it has become a thorn in my flesh?
im emo now.
im in the ocean, searching for [n]emo.
someone distract me.. lead me to find dory..
so that i can smile and be myself again.
emo{n}emo.

pissed. DAM PISSED

i, FIONA CHIA, have not been blogging. im so sry blog =( HENCE, i will blog a long post this time(:

okay. first thing. IM SUPER, IDIOTICALLY, DAMN, INFURIATED!
damn it man.. i've been asking for WEEKS! and the answer is always straight - N-O = NO! why? why? WHY?! just because of those stupid idiotic bombings?! seriously.. some people really got no life..

and so what if he does better than me? so what if he's top 10 in the school? so what if he can go to london? london is even more dangerous larh for goodness sake! anyone can get grab a gun and go around shooting at people, be it an English man or a Singaporean man.

am i that incompetent compared to him? AM I?! yea.. he's older. he has more knowledge than me. he's made his name in school. he scores a1 for both mathematics and i cant. i score what... Bs. chemistry and physics.. he can score at least a2s for both! me? FAIL PHYSICS(happy?).. chem.. only a b3. he got his own room.. with his own private space. where's mine? he's got a kind characteristic, patient, caring and thoughtful. yea.. he's filled with all the positive characteristics that u can ever think of. not a single flaw found in him. praise him then... sing his praises!!

hah.. me. im just a useless bum who laze around.. incapable of doing anything right. if not.. it gets screwed up! and get what? teases.. jeers.. mockery! yea.. i know. i just cant do anything right. the major things that is. the minor.. if i cant do it right.. then im purely retarded.

to conclude.. i shall say a few words - ****, ****, *******, *****, ********, whatever crap u can think of.

now what?! msn = im not doing well in my studies?! try putting yourself in my shoes man! i dont have a fantastic brain.. my brain's not as good as him. so? whatever i do, using of computer for research = PLAYING GAMES! playing games = NOT DOING HW! what the **** is this!? this is seriously pissing me off man! just because i dont have my own privacy that's why i have to use the computer in the office. yea.. i do have problems managing my time now.. cause there's just too much stress! the first term's over! and the first term was relax! RELAX! this term is STRESS! there's like SYF to worry about.. school's been hectic.. and u, there COMPLAINING about me not doing my work and having trouble?! how in the world did u infer that im having trouble?!

your school life and my school life are totally different. WE LIVE IN DIFFERENT GENERATIONS! yours.. simple and sweet. not complicating.. not confusing.. yea.. u learn what we learnt.. but in a simpler version! and in chinese.. your favourite. mine.. simple? SIMPLIFIED IN A COMPLICATED AND CONFUSING WAY. u gotta understand it man! and yea.. my chinese sucks. i admit that. and im a chinese. and i have to pull my chinese socks up. but.. can u help me? NO U CANT! why? CAUSE U CANT EVEN HELP YOURSELF IN CHINESE!

my results for term 1 totally sucked. i know about that deep down. it's TERM ONE. new subjects are introduced to you! u learn more about chemistry than physics. and physics.. is SO like maths.. and i guess practice is a must. chemistry.. memorisation and understand. chemistry is much better than physics. i totally freak out for physics. BUT DO U UNDERSTAND THAT?! do u know how difficult is it for me to grasp the main point of the chapter? and since u've studied all these.. im just going to pick a question out of my workbook and throw it to u for u to answer. if it's so easy to answer.. and there isnt a need to crack that brain of yours... then GO AHEAD! what crap! idiot man!

more birthdays! woohoo!

hahah!! once again.. it's the BIRTHDAY day!! hahaha LOL.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHARIS!!(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HUMAIRA!!(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOSHUA!

hhahaa! cool man! 5 days ago.. it was 3 people's birthday. and TODAY! another 3!! hahahaha!!

all the best people!(: remember to SMILE=) and make a wish before blowing out the candles!! hahahahaha!!

j, you are a loser dude.
fancy u running away. LOL!

another birthday!

today's lemuel's birthday! hahahaha!! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEMUEL!!!!

all the best for O's and to that secret of yours! hahahaha! ><

birthdays and more birthdays!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GLENN!!(:(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TIFFANY!(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KANGWEI!(:


wow.. so many people turning 15 today! why.. they chose the day they wanna be born? LOL. hahahaha! it's the last day of the holidays. well.. i dont really like one week holidays.. cause it's ONLY a week. and i have not finished my homework =x

ohoh!
best wishes to the three of you!((: STAY HAPPY AND SMILE!

to give up or to continue

there's this soldier,
he likes the princess very much.
however, the princess had no feelings for him at all.
but the princess said,
'i will consider if you stand at the foot of my castle for 100 days.'
and so he did.
he stood there,
be it bright hot sunny days,
or stormy cold rainy nights.
soon the 99th day came,
but the soldier gave up on the 100th day.
why?
because he was afraid the princess would reject him.

see.. u like someone.
not that kind of like.. but really really really like him/her.
but u know he/she isnt gonna like you..
there are two ways u can take:
one is like the above - give up.
second - continue liking that person.

u may be wondering why the second option is to continue liking that person.
well, maybe because u wanna let that person know that u really like him/her.
may not be like but even love..
so that's why u are clinging onto that little bit of faith..
hoping that the person u are in love with would be touched.
that's my opinion.. u may not agree with me cause u have you own way of thinking.
hahaha..

the choice is yours and yours alone.
not mine, not his, not hers, not theirs, no ones.
just YOURS.

birthdays

HAPPY SWEET 16TH TO JIAN YONG!

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY TO DHARMEN!

best wishes!(:

JY: good luck for O's.. haha.. and *ahem* too...... HEHE(:

Dharmen: good luck for streaming.. and u and her too! hahahaha!

movie..

i went to watch a movie today.. with sandy, astrid, nigel poo, clayton, rachel and daniel. we watched PURSUIT OF HAPPYNESS(:

it was nice overall. hahaha.. a true story on how a guy was dumped by his wife cause he wasnt able to make money.. and he had a son to support.. he was not able to pay his bills and taxes cause he didnt have money. it was till he got a job as a stockbroker and started a new life again.. lalala~

i've found out a dreadful truth today. lol.

yea, i've found out after they gave me the hint.
it's ok..
i'll just do what i usually do......
live my life happily(:

BLOG'S BIRTHDAY!

WOOTS!

HER ONE MONTH'S TOMORROW!!!!
MY DEAREST BLOG'S ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY IS TOMORROW!

oh.. i feel so honoured!
she's a month old(:

should i write you a letter?
a letter filled with nothing but tears?
or a letter filled with happiness?
or even butterflies?

skating @ east coast

I WENT SKATING TODAY!

it was seriously SHIOK! but painful too.. hehehe.. it's really different skating in school and at east coast. the skates at east coast are smoother.. i fell 7 times anyway.. hahaha! i fell until my hand has bruises... and it has turned purple. =x

i've spend like.. 4 hours at east coast? hhahaha... i gave up near bedok jetty and rented a double bike so my 'teacher' can sit after she returned her skates.. hahahahah... bedok jetty was filled with people.. as usual.. hahah.... i dont feel like describing it. lol

lalala.. walked to parkway to buy dinner and walked back..

homework due:
chemistry - revision exercise 5
- chem quiz on atomic structure and ionic bonding
physics - holiday homework
social studies - file ss file
- social studies essay
geography elective - write out notes on coniferous rainforest
chinese - jianbao(3 weeks)
- kaocha(chapters 1-8)
- read chinese book(lol)
e. maths - refer to acelearning portal
- workbook pg 54, 59, 60
a. maths - last few pages of quadratic functions questions in workbook

im really aching.

what can i do now?
what can i say?
should i just sit and dream of the impossible?
or should i just let it go?

it's a sunday

sunday is here. and sunday's almost gone.
i spent it.. lifelessly? lol.
watched 4 3 movies -
The Little Mermaid;
I LOVE THIS MOVIE. though, yea.. i know.. im 14 going on 15.. but watching it allowed me to reminisce my past. the good olden days.. when i was young and innocent.. oblivious to everything..

Shark Tale;
this movie.. i didnt watch it before.. and i long to watch it. lalala~

Lemony Snicket's a series of unfortunate events;
well.. a very familiar title indeed.. but i just cant remember.. and it's a nice movie(:

i've decided on something. something big.

homework due:

chemistry- revision exercise 5, chem quiz on atomic structure and ionic bonding

physics- holiday homework(a pile of worksheets)

social studies- essay, file ss file

geography elective- write out notes

chinese- jian bao(3 weeks), learn chapters 1-8 for kao cha, read chinese exercise book

e. maths- refer to acelearning portal

a. maths- last few pages on quadratic functions, blahblahblah

it will eventually come..
will it?

THEORY EXAMINATION!

days have past.. and the ultimate day has arrived.

MY THEORY EXAM IS FINALLY HERE. well.. the paper was.. i dont know how to grade it but it's kinda tough. i slept for an hour in fact. LOL. the paper was 3 hours long... so i slept for the first hour before starting the paper. hehe(: im not sure whether i will score well.. or whether i will even pass... praying hard praying hard.

choir was ok today.. but was really pissed with the guy in front. cant help but feel pissed. dont wanna talk about him. a sore to the eye.. a pain in the neck. what can we do about him.. give him attitude? lol.

at siglap south cc, everything was fine. the choirs were great. nanyang and st. nicholas, i think, surprised me. though st. nicholas did not have as many girls as nanyang had, the volume was still appropriate and acceptable.. lalala~

i was still as blahblahblah as ever. im sorry but i just couldnt get 'hi' out of my mouth.........

then was my theory examinations and after that i went for a sumptuous feast. wahahhahaa. i was really really full. too full already.. imagine.. 13 dishes: chilli crab, fish, fried wanton, fried dumpling, bbq chicken wings, nong hiam (or however u spell it), roasted chicken, frog legs, clam(lala), vegetables, hor fun, satay and mantou and 3 cups of sugar cane juice. that's A LOT of food.. wowowow(:

the march holidays have arrived.. though it's the holidays.. it's only a week. and the teachers have piled us with loads of homework that seemed unable to complete. wanna know what hw i have?

chemistry- revision exercise 5, chem quiz on atomic structure and ionic bonding
physics- holiday homework(a pile of worksheets)
social studies- essay, file ss file
geography elective- write out notes
chinese- jian bao(3 weeks), learn chapters 1-8 for kao cha, read chinese exercise book
e. maths- refer to acelearning portal
a. maths- last few pages on quadratic functions, blahblahblah

haizz.. i dont feel like doing them. =(

i wanna go skating during the hols. anyone wanna follow? hehe(:

you dont make me sad.
in fact, you make me happy(:
it's just that i think too much..
which makes me feel sad.
dont blame yourself(if u are blaming yourself) for making me sad.
cause u didnt..
be your normal self as i wanna see you in your normal self(:
dont fret about me.
im not worth of your sympathy.

saddd

IM FEELING SAD. :(

cry your heart out.
just cry.
dont hold back those tears.
crying out will make you feel better..

sianned (infinity)

siann..

IT'S TOTALLY SIANNED. AND IM GOING TO WRITE IN CAPS. I JUST NOT IN THE MOOD. I CANT HELP BUT THINK OF UNPLEASANT STUFF. THEY JUST FILL MY MIND LIKE AN ENDLESS FLOW OF OCEAN WATER FLOWING INTO THE PACIFIC OCEAN.

chill girl...
can i post something i wanna post for a long long LONG time?

countdown.. 2 days.. to the major exam.. haizzzzzzzzzz

why the cold treatment?
why the stoning?
do you know why i cant converse with you?
cause..
seeing you makes me stone.
my heartbeat stops.
my eyes fixed on you.
and then,
im loss for words.
my mind's blank.
do you understand why now?

choir for sec 1s

today..

one word. SIAN.

nothing special happened today. only the choir for sec 1s. guess they are managing quite fine. a nice way to look for leaders.. a nice approach.. nothing much to say in fact..

countdown.. 3 daysss... to the major exam. haizz

live life to the fullest.
that's all i wanna tell you..
as long there's you,
there will be me(:
i cant imagine one day..
when you are gone........
what will happen?
i seriously dont know...

common test

common test seriously sucked for me.

i've failed 2 subjects already. sobsobs:( i will tell u all my results when i've received all of them.. haiz.. these results are shytty. :(((((((((((((((((((((

the wound on my face stings a lot today.. now and then.. it just stings and stings me. ooooooooOOOOOOO.. how i wish it would go away..

today was a dreadful day.. i've realized im slacking.. and not a bit.. but A LOT. that explains my pathetic results:( ss.. almost the whole class failed. only a few passed.. and the number of people who passed is less than 10. great right? i really have to study man.. STUDY! why do people think that im a mugger? i dont mug. i only mug towards the examinations periods. but this time.. i think i really have to put in EXTRA EXTRA effort to get what i've missed out that dumb head of mine. i cannot afford to deteriorate in my studies that much... i guess i've really disappointed a lot of people this time.. especially some particular ones.. gotta work hard man.. MUST WORK HARD.

motivate motivate motivate motivate motivate.

my last few days for slacking... then back on the track. im seriously a different me. my 'hardworkingness' is gone. is it because of too much influence? damnn.

why is the world going so wrong? why is it that things are drifting apart? why are things changing? why cant i stop ****** you? why? why?? why??? WHY???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

drift, drift, drift..
that's what we are doing.
far apart we go..
not able to find the path we used to take.
i seriously miss those times..
reminiscing the past..
doesnt bring back much to me.
i wanna talk to you..
like i used to....

ouchhhh..

ouch.. ouch.. ouch..

thanks la brother. thanks for doing that to me. how many times have i avoided that clip of mine.. in that hand of yours.. why? cause it's mine and i know how sharp it is. that's why i AVOIDED it.. yet u still wanna play.. and there goes that patch of skin off my face. why are u so childish still?????

owwww... it's kinda bubbly now.. stinging me every now and then... especially when my face comes into contact with WATER. pain............ sobsobs... please dont leave a scar.. or else i will kill u bro....

okk.. enough of that.. hmm.. TODAY! i've gotten back 5 papers. a maths.. e maths.. chem.. mother tongue.. AND physics. my results are pathetic. serious.. utterly.. PATHETIC! but im not going to announce my results till i've receive EVERY single paper(: i can only tell u all.. I'VE FAILED PHYSICS:(

today was sianned. the SLs are back.. and they are singing cheers every now and then.. something with the under where(underwear) and the 'BAKWA' cheer.. with the clapping with tempo one(everybody dance now.. kfc? lol. sakae sushi?? hahaha!). i seriously think the cheers are nicer.. and it seems more fun. the sec 2s have nightwalk... which is COOL. though it's really down and dirty.. but yea.. FUN is the thing u wanna achieve and of course.. experience from camping. there's also flying fox and more others.. which the sec 3s, 2007, didnt do last year. it was kinda restricted last year.. cause it was a resort.

after school.. i tried helping clement do his chinese composition by translating the points to english.. haha.. joel helped him in the end.. my chinese is seriously weak. the whole gingang of guys went off to play lan instead in the end.. lol. waste bling bling. i waited for sandy to come down from her dnt.. before going off to parkway to meet nigel, clayton and my bro. ate macs.. come to think of it.. that's adding on almost a thousand carbohydrates.. oh freakkkk..

again i ate yusheng for dinner.. that's like the 5th one already.. thanks to my kind neighbour.. who gives me one plate after another every year.. hahahaha(: THANK YOU!!

lalalaa~ off to do my theory =x

how i wish the phone will ring,
with you saying your usual salutations.
and we will start chatting away.
or the phone ringing on the desk,
and no voice comes out.
but i will still know it's you,
as it has always been..

it started with a kiss..

watch e[4] zuo[4] ju[4] zhi[1] wen[3]-it started with a kiss.

it's damn nice.. and so like a dream come true.... a girl wooed a guy for 5 years.. and that guy realized that she's the only girl he loved. for all that she did for him.. though it created trouble.. and finally.. they married(: that's sweet...

however, i dont think such a story will come true.. it's really a DREAM COME TRUE. if there's really such a miracle on earth.. i guess that couple is really really really blessed. haha(:

there's this prince charming,
riding on his white horse,
on that patch of green...
the butterflies see you,
and there they go.. flying after you,
trying to catch a glimpse of you,
and win your praises deep in your heart.
however, there's this little butterfly,
unnoticed and unglam..
flying at the back of the group,
waiting to be noticed.

SCO's second performance

IT'S OVER!

it's over.. surprisingly, it's over so fast. well, the second concert was kinda short. yea, i felt it was short.. shorter than the first one on friday. overall.. i found it ok(:
hahahaha.. there was a celebration after the whole performance. it was a BUFFET. ahahahhaa. nice right? heheheheheheheheehhe. of course people will eat and eat and eat cause there's SO much food.. and it's simply DELICIOUS! hahahah..

sunday morning! i woke up just in time for my piano. lol. ahahaha(: im going to worry man.. my examinations coming right up. oh.. and i cant believe ezra and felicia are taking the exam too! hahahahaha(: coooooooooolllllllllll.....

im a naughty girl.. i shall not post something which i cannot post. hahahah(: too risky.

lalalala.. think i'll stop here.. ADIOUS(:

when i read those words,
it's like one million, one billion,
one trillion, one zillion,
or even infinity knives piercing through my heart..
as tears welled up in my eyes..
and rolled down my cheek.
i seriously dont like that,
but i just have to accept reality..
get a grip girl.

first sco concert

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO(:

yesterday.. i reached home at 12.10AM. nice.... the performance ended around 10PM. it was tiring. basically the choir's restless. the noise level was really high... and i was feeling very very tired. hahahaa.. they all though i was emo-ing. nahhhh.. just tired.. fatigue.. overcoming me.. trying to make my systems break down so that i will sleep and then my body can rest. lol.

well.. there are some things i wanna say.. but i cannot say it. hahaha... oh yea.. i shall say this. I NEED CHOCOLATES! when can i have a bite into that tasty loving chunk of chocolate? chocolate come back to meee............................ LOL.

today's the second performance. again? yes, again. we clapped like for a long time yesterday. how long? i dont know. i didnt have my phone with me nor a watch. we are not allowed to have them with us. well.. when mr kwei came on stage.. we cheered for him! hahaha! YEA!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!then came the others as well.. the performers, the singers, the director of sco i think.. and the person who organised this performance(is it? i seriously dont know. lol.)..

haha.. shu han and i always chiong for the toilet. why? to change of course. then her father came to fetch her.. while i joined the rest for supper.. makan makan. hahahha(: dennis is seriously TALL. hahha! im glad though.. cause besides my bro who is 1.8++m.. it seems like no one else actually reaches that height.. till dennis came... oohhhhh.... LOL. hahahah(:

we went to pastamania.. where ashley and andrea bought a strawberry cheesecake(i think.. or is it a normal cake?). dennis a cup of coffee.. with lots of foam on top and the rest of guys went to use the computer. what i did? just sat there and read a book taken from the bookshelf. they seriously think im emo-ing. lol. dennis thought i was thinking about my guy which in fact.. i dont have one. hhahahaha.. lolololol. well the book's interesting(title: jupiter's bones).. go read if u want.. there're 38 chapters. hahahhahaah..

well.. we went to macdonalds at marina square after that. and that's where they guys devour the burgers like they have not eaten one for ages. hahahaa. actually not really devouring.. it's just that im exaggerating.. hahahaha(: then we went home taking the mrt... was it the last train? i think it was the second last. hahahaa... well.. g was thinking of sending me home.. cause it's almost twelve. hahaha.. TY(: but lucky my father's coming to fetch me from the station. hahaha.. next time if my dad's fetching my home.. can u please at least let my dad fetch u back too? he knows u and u know him. hahaha.. and though u are a guy.. it's still not safe to go home alone... singapore's not that safe..

i realized i have not updated on my music list =/ sorry!! i'll update now(: hahahaaaa

im having a late new year's resolution. hahaha! u wanna know what it is? hahhaha(:

sometimes, i wanna rest my head on your shoulders,
and hear the ever-so-calm breathing of yours.
sometimes, i wanna hug you,
and never like you go like i've always wanted to.
sometimes......

fatigueX1000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000

thusday wasnt a bad day.
just that it's after the common test, and everyone wasnt in the mood to study... yet..

i wanna amend some sentences in the previous post:
1. clement going to cohort camp
2. sherwin and shigeng bullying me

hahah!
clement is not going for cohort camp.. he is not going,he will not be going. woots! hahaha.. at least there's someone behind me during english.. better than an empty space and then shigeng's face =x

the class is so not crappy. less noisy. less active. without the student leaders!! COME BACK PLEASE! it's so boring... no crapiness.. no anything='( i miss u guys a lot. especially my brother-in-law and his wife.. and my other sis-in-law... ='(

and yea, sherwin and shigeng didnt bully me... hahaha.. they bully erwin. LOL. haha.. they bully themselves(: poor thing.. kena separated. nice one la mr t. u crapped nonsense in class.. u asked us not to waste time and u started telling us your whatsoeverucallthat, u bring bushes to class and walk round them and then 50 minutes passed. u hastily passed us the handouts which u put under your ******. dont u have a sense of disgust(is there such a phrase)? and when u go through the worksheets, DO IT QUICK. stop bringing one bush and another and beat around it(beating around a bush is mr t. favourite hobby xD)!

it feels funny having one person missing from the column. and weird having an empty space beside shigeng. stupid goldfish.

hmmm. SCO. tiring. stood like for how long? the choir just sat whenever's available. today's the concert. haizz.. yesterday was so so tiring. i almost fell asleep in class today. and i know i really did BADLY for ct. i've failed a subject already. and i know my chem, i didnt do well. im down for remedial im sure. it's good i guess.

i realized.. sec 3 life isnt really of a honeymoon year. the teachers push u forward and like a bullet train, they rush to teach u whatever knowledge they have to pass on. and when they finish, it's up to u to understand and digest. sit for the paper and they will know whether u have fully understand what they are trying to relate to u. if not, there are loads of remedials and supplementary lessons waiting for u. lining up from parkway to orchard road(lol.) it's just reality. there isnt time for slacking. only once in a while then off u go, on the track in the train filled with knowledge. if sec 3's life gonna be so hectic, then what about sec 4? will i ever make it into my dream jc?

it's raining cats and dogs now. and lightning and thunder have struck again and again. uncountable raindrops fall from the greyish sky. in fact, watching the rain can be quite nice(: the wind blows from left to right and the raindrops follow suit. nature is such a wonderful thing. haha..

gtg. sco..

because of you, i hold you so.
because of you, i dont wanna let you go.
because of you, i hold on to all my fears.
please, i wouldnt let you go
neither do i want you to let me go.