im stupid

yea, im a damn stupid asshole that u have given birth to.
thanks a lot.

the last day of the year didnt go the way i wanted it to,
whatever.

let's listen to tonight,

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i've decided, it's pointless to hate u. why? cause i'll be facing u for the rest of my life -.- i just pray for my dad to say 'yes' and he better not say 'go ask your mom'. i've always believed fathers are the benevolent one for some issues.

i hate it when my mood's ruin. might as well, u two can go happy bbq-ing in JB and stay at the resort till the 1st, then u return. wouldnt that be great? zzz

i hate you

i hate you.
dont reason with me,
cause i'll reason with u.
dumbass piece of shit.

301207

listen to 987fm, compare dan&young and the muttons, muttons are still much more ridiculous in jokes and stuff. they are really really funny.

2nd last day of the year 2007 and the sky has showered us with plenty of rain but at least not as much as last year. last year was dreadful. tmr's the last day of 2007, let's enjoy it okay? enjoy it happily, with big smiles :D yes smiles~

let's go get a bag.
i need to trim my fringe.

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i was filled with hope.
although i have not finished my homework.
BUT AT LEAST IT'S STILL HOPE.
THAT TEENY WEENY HOPE.
AND ONE 'NO' SENT ME PLUNGING DOWN INTO A SEA OF SORROWS.

fine then, i'll wait till im 21! everything, 21! no bus, no trains? PLEASE, THEY ARE EXTENDING THE HOURS. 21 21 21 21 21 21 21 21 21 21 21 21 21 21 21 21 21 21 21 21, 21 then i can countdown. 21 then i can party. 21 then i can go stayover at friend's house. everything 21!

Teardrops On My Guitar

Teardrops On My Guitar
by Taylor Swift

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

bad mood

im feeling hatred.
that's not good.
argghh.
i need classical music to chill. (o.O)
fine.
im typing things that are so irrelevant.
i wish im home alone.
so i'll have the house to myself for the day.
it's going to be much more dreadful when my parents return.
one word,
damn.

damn

is it me or is my body giving way?
dont wish for history to repeat.
history that happened 5 years ago.
haiz.
who's got to blame?
only myself.
for not taking care.

throbbing mind..

sorry's not good enough

i shall dedicate 'Sorry's Not Good Enough" by McFly to the topic i've just posted(6th song in my playlist).
enjoy~

Sorry's Not Good Enough
by McFly

Good, good, good, good enough.
Good, good, good enough.
Good, good, good enough.
Good, good

I can't stop, I can't stop loving you.
You're a dreamer and dreaming's what you do,
I won't stop believing that this is the end, there must be another way.
Cos I couldn't handle the thought of you going away,
woah yeah.

Sorry's not good enough, why are we breaking up?
Cos I didn't treat you rough so please don't go changing.
What was I thinking of?
You said you're out of love, baby don't call this off because
sorry's not good enough.

Don't stop, all those things you do.
I'm a believer and that's what gets you through,
I can't fight this feeling that this is the end,
We're in the thick of it, where will this ever end?
Woah, woah.

Sorry's not good enough, why are we breaking up?
Cos I didn't treat you rough so please don't go changing.
What was I thinking of?
You said you're out of love, baby don't call this off because
sorry's not good enough.

Oh, you said you'd never leave me be there, to hold and please me.
Sorry's just not good enough for you,
Everybody makes mistakes and that's just what we do.

Good, good, good, good enough.
Good, good, good enough.
Good, good, good enough.
Good, good.

Don't go changing, [X8]
Don't go changing (sorry's not good enough),
Don't go changing (sorry's not good enough),
Don't go changing (sorry's not good enough),
Don't go changing.

Sorry's not good enough, why are we breaking up?
Cos I didn't treat you rough so please don't go changing.
What was I thinking of?
You said you're out of love, baby don't call this off because
sorry's not good enough.
Sorry's not good enough.
Sorry's not good enough

281207

first, i would like to thank jieee for sending my dinner all the way to the where i was(it's a secret =x). thanks much, and it was delicious :D

okay, today was funny. supposedly. home ruins everything. not mine.

topic of the day: parents

parents, what are they? they are mature human beings who educate their children and raise them to become adults, not as what they want us to be but adults that are also mature and independent, in thinking, actions, whatsoever.

my knowledge of parents, they are kind, loving, caring, etc. no biasness between any children be it two, three or four. every children they have will be treated equally and such. parents are supposed to be encouraging in every way, studies, other extra activities they take. parents should let their children choose the path they want, they can help carve the way, but the final result lies with their children themselves. parents shouldnt demoralize their children like calling them stupid or saying things like, "why cant you do such a simple thing like this?!". and when you said it in a harsh tone or loud tone, it's scolding. parents deny when they scold. they'll just say, "im just telling you, not that i want to scold you." . if it isnt, why do we children feel so hurt whenever u scream at us?

parents shouldnt throw their temper at us. we, as children, no, teenagers are a well bunch of 15 going on 16. yes, we do have older siblings. they do fairly well better than us, but i find that, there shouldnt be comparison between two. not say two, three! no matter how many kids there are in a family, everyone should be treated equally and expectations should be set prior to the child's ability. even if there isnt an older sibling around, the younger one. parents pamper and spoil the younger one. yes, giving way. to a limit. there's always limit to things. too much of giving way will end up having the child spoilt, spoilt brat he/she will become. if parents think that giving their children whatever they want will give them happiness and all, that's so wrong. it will only end up with your child pampered and spoilt, everything u have to give to him/her etc. no independence at all so what happens? your child relies heavily on you and when u are not able to give him/her what he/she wants, who's going to suffer?

not saying whatsoever, parents are the trees of families. families are there to stand by each other when something happens. words of encouragement are needed when one is down. sometimes, scoldings do no good. they just hurt one's feelings and pride. especially children. when a parent scolds his child, " you're stupid." the child feels really bad and hurtful, and too many times of having the same experience will result in having the child to really think he's stupid. and that's the moment he's really stupid. so why allow this to happen?

yes i know, parents do have limits and patience. but listen out more to your children. listen to what they have to say, what they have to tell. it takes two hands to clap. so it takes the child to communicate and the parent to listen. vice versa. it's a task that just requires ears and mouth. of course, some things parents hear may set them off bursting red and volcano erupting within them. take things easy, chill and such. best is to sit down and talk. have a nice good talk with your family to understand them better. this way, there wouldnt be communication breakdown. understanding of family members is important. parents may seem to know their children as they have watched them grow from young. but their children have been exposed to school life and the open society. things have changed within them, their attitudes and personalities. and children cant go the way parents want them to because children have their own mindset. they know what they want and such so let them go their way. of course, asking them what's the path they want to take and support them whole-heartedly.

my parents always tell me this, 我吃盐比你吃米多。yea, since they had the experience, they can share with their children. they can guide them along as they go, giving advices and such. old days words can still remain the same but things have changed. some things have to be related in other points of view.

i think i should stop here. all the above is by what i think and feel. hope there will be no flaming -.- im sorry but i feel that i can spill everything here. if u are happy reading it, erm, thanks? if u are not happy, or have a different point of view, it's okay to say. i accept all other points of views. maybe mine's too general. besides, everything has many points of view. and there's always counter argument.

night all.

i am legend

watched 'i am legend' at engwah cinemas. scary parts are sudden loud sounds and the zombs appearing halfway. but i didnt really like it. yea, i felt it was lame instead. the ending was so.. so... __?????__ everyone was like expecting something to happen and nooo, nothing happened. lol. quite a draggy show.

yea, so i went with the rest to suntec to watch it. wanted to watch alvin and the chipmunks because i haven get to watch it yet! and the timeslot for alvin and the chipmunks was like, 7.20 pm. hohoho, nice one engwah cinemas. -.- should have gone to watch national treasure T.T waste money, waste popcorn, waste coke~ bleah.

yea, then clayton and cheryl went home while the rest came to my house. havoc =x no la, joking. usual people, usual guests. they know the rules :D glad to have them here anyway. it has been quite some time since they last came. wonder when will be the next?

then walked to katong shopping centre and haha, i got a treat from glenn. wahaha, strawberry milk shake! woots~ bubble tea =p yup, then we went to collect the papers he sent for photocopying and went home. lala..

i think we should all just sit down and chat. seriously, chat. never had the chance to do that. but i think we, as a group, have loads to chat about. hah :D

today's italics will be
________________________.
why?
i have no idea what to write.

boredom

the two songs posted are posted due to sheer boredom.
yea, im bored.
and my lunch sucks.
still it's food.
so deal with it -.-

beautiful girls -sean kingston

Beautiful Girls
by Sean Kingston

JR! Sean Kingston!

[Chorus:]
You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do you dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

[Verse 1:]
See it started at the park
Used to chill after dark
Oh when you took my heart
That's when we fell apart
Cause we both thought
That love lasts forever (lasts forever)
They say we're too young
To get ourselves sprung
Oh we didn't care
We made it very clear
And they also said
That we couldn't last together (last together)

[Refrain:]
See it's very divine,you're one of a kind
But you mash up my mind
You have to get declined
Oh Lord...
My baby is driving me crazy

[Repeat Chorus]

[Verse 2:]
It was back in '99
Watchin' movies all the time
Oh when I went away
For doin' my first crime
And I never thought
That we was gonna see each other (see each other)
And then I came out
Mami moved me down South
Oh I'm with my girl
Who I thought was my world
It came out to be
That she wasn't the girl for me (girl for me)

[Repeat Refrain and Chorus]

[Verse 3:]
Now we're fussin'
And now we're fightin'
Please tell me whyI'm feelin' slighted
And I don't know
How to make it better (make it better)
You're datin' other guys
You're tellin' me lies
Oh I can't believe
What I'm seein' with my eyes
I'm losin' my mind
And I don't think it's clever (think it's clever)
You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal, suicidal...

Beautiful Girl(the reply) - Jojo

Beautiful Girls(the reply)
by Jojo

I'm way too cool for ya boy
That's why it'll never work
I'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over

Damn all these beautiful girls
We're only gonna do your dirt
We'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over

Yeah yeah

I remember when I was hanging with my friends
That's when I caught your eye
You thought that I was fly
Right then you wished that I would be your baby (be your baby)
You try to get some game
Asking me girl what ya name
All that ice upon ya chain
So I asked you the same
Something tells me that we have fun together (fun together)

I ain't easy to findI'm a one of a kind
Oh when I judge your wine
I know your only mine
Tonight is yours
Tomorrow is for another guy (another guy)

I'm way too cool for ya boy
That's why it'll never work
I'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
We're only gonna do your dirt
We'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over

You've been calling me
Leaving messages all week
Was your curiousity
Got ya knees weak I'm not looking for a man
So I don't want no confusion (no confusion)
I took ya to the floor
Got ya begging me for more
But that was my queue to go
So I hit the doorI let you hot
With your mind used to running wild (running wild)

I ain't easy to find
I'm a one of a kind
Oh when I judge your wine
I know your only mine
If you stick around
Be careful not to fall in love (fall in love)

I'm way too cool for ya boy
That's why it'll never work
I'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
We're only gonna do your dirt
We'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over

Now a couple months have past
Never thought that this would last
Oh everybody asked
How ya got a girl like that
But you should've known That nothing lasts forever (lasts forever)
I mashed up ya mind
When I tell you lies
But boy don't be suprised
That I'm seeing other guys
I'm too young to settle
And you should've known better (known better)

Damn all these beautiful girls (you should have known)
We're only gonna do your dirt (cos I'll have)
I'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over

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lol. okay la. jiee, your attire, not weird la. but quite big. yea, u look like my dad without the belly =x haha! should have walked with you to the other end, then you can treat me to starbucks. LOL. joking :D

haha, seriously, u are the senior that has been through almost everything that i've been through since sec 1. everything. then when im down, u'll listen to me(u still remember that day right? the phone call =x). when im happy, u'll erm be happy with me just that u always suan me halfway -.- besides your cheekiness and etc, u still play your part as a senior and such. excluding the pms-es, have to pms with u in the end -.- thanks for the treat on my 15th birthday, the expensive one =x ps ar, didnt get anything for you on your sweet 16. and thanks for the dinner that day i had with my bro :D haha, all in all, thanks loads~

yup, i remembered that i wanna write this last night before i drift off into lalaland. thanks a bunch :D

men are from earth,
women are from earth,
deal with it. <-- yay :D

261207

happy boxing day people! :D

went to airport to finish some homework. at least wrote something -.- my da ge and da jie are, as usual, spastic. i do not wish to explain what happened in details nor in short. cause it's no point knowing what i have to say. it's a secret :D

jieee came to get what i had for him from me. his attire seems weird. very weird. because of work that's why. hahaa but still the same old jieee. now he owes me one bowl of that korean rice thingy. wahahhaa.

cheryl anne came to collect her geog e notes. ps ar, kept them with me for soooo long =x seemed like she had fun in japan except for the food. too much seafood i guess =x bubbly cheryl anne :D

then i went home. the bus took so long to come -.- like, 3 bus no. 27, 2 bus no. 24, 2 bus number 53, a coach from woodlands and dont know how many coaches to budget terminal came and left yet bus no. 36 haven arrived -.- it came eventually.

yea, that's all for today.
wonder if i should go out tmr. i dont wish for a lecture. haiz..

im tired.
very..

MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D

MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL~
lol, christmas is almost over and im just posting my post. ps =x

went out today at vivo. lesson learnt, never think of watching a movie when u cannot watch late ones especially when it's a public holiday like christmas -.- let's see, we queued for half an hour, in the end, seats were out, not say really out but separated. okay, fine then. lol.

we went to walk around vivo instead. started off by walking in the open area. the top where there's water and such. yup, walked round the whole place and talked etc. the wind there was cooling. vivo can become a picnic place in fact -.-

then went back into the shopping centre and walked around the whole area. entered toys r us. lol =x i've really got a deprived childhood man. the toys there are so, wow. yea, i find the modern days children much more priviledged. i've never had the chance to play them BUT i find them a waste of money =x ohoh, but the big bears and dogs(toys) are cute :D

yea, so we continued walking and had a drink. surprisingly after the drink, the atmosphere was kinda chilly. the temperature seemed to have dropped -.-

so it was this and that, that and this. and we went home. lol.
btw, the moon tonight's bright and round. i can see the rays reflected from the moon. pretty thing :D

merry christmas once again~

thanks for your present :D

241207

it's the eve of christmas..

my family and i went out to pray erm, i think it was goddess of mercy. yea.. then went to eat at the hawker centre opposite tjc. the char kway teow stall(hill street) wasnt open so we had fish ball noodles and some yong tau foo instead. finally i get to drink sugar cane.

oh, before we headed for bedok, we went to see my grandma's house. it isnt exactly rightfully hers. now it is being occupied by another family. they've renovated it and it looks much more pleasant as compared to the times when it was empty and cold. that was primary 1. end of primary 1. yea, i miss her so.

i think i had too much of sugar stuff today. i had sugar cane and then mcflurry. lol. last night i slept really late. i know my panda eyes are horrible -.- i need eye gel..

what i've deduced was right.

231207

sian.
sian.
sian.
i wanna blog.
but there's like nothing to blog.
not say nothing but my brain's not telling me what to blog.

hi :D
bye :D

happy ending

Happy Ending lyrics
by Mika

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love [repeat]

I feel as if I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

221207

christmas is coming~
the year is going to end~
i have not finished my homework~
oh this is so damn~

a game cheats feelings. tsk. that's why im going to stay away from it, soon. hah. im going to work towards that motivation. the motivation that will set me going, just keep that flame alive.

you'll soon have your dreams realized..

211207

i went to the airport today with my brother.
starbucks java chip rocks. the price rocks too. lol. but it isnt me who paid for it. wahaha :D
did some homework. some. most of the time was asking bro how to do, how to do and how to do -.- that's what happens when u have someone good in maths in front of you =p

at least i manage to finish some and at least some things are back in my head. holidays make u forget stuff =x mainly because i played for 1 1/2 of my holidays. hehe.

it was quite cold in the airport, not say freezing or anything. but really cold. saw some guy watering the planes in the airport. woots~ singapore changi airport is a busy place. really busy.. but i love the airport. the christmas decorations are nice too :D love the big, tall tree!!

bought fries from macs. the person there was, erm, shocked when i just ordered fries. especially when he said, " only? "
it's like, none of his business what im ordering -.-

bus ride home was okay. 36 is so crowded. watched hollow man 2 after i reached home. gore so gore. hate the way they kill the people.

i shall end here now :D
ohoh, terminal 3's toilets are nice =) okay that's wrong

open your heart and follow where it leads you...
and remember, shoot for the moon...
- by, P.S I Love You(Cecelia Ahern)

p.s i love you

'P.S I Love You' is a sweet, lovely, romantic storybook.
have not read it yet? go read it. sure to touch your heart from the top to the bottom :D

festives

10 more minutes to 211207.

HAPPY HARI RAYA HAJI to all muslims :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BELINDA :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JANICE :D
wishes come true~

new found motivation

i've found my motivation.
to what? u can make a guess.

now i need something, something to keep my motivation going.
and im going to prove you wrong.
as what jy said, prove him wrong.
yea, i am going to prove you wrong.
as long as that desire, that flame of desire doesnt extinguish,
im sure i can do it.

you'll be my strength wont you?

191207

i wanted to blog about today. but i lost the mood.

just that i've ate bandito pocket and it tasted so good.
and borders, romance series books were so great and fantastic but they are so sick.
thefaceshop lip balm was so sensational.

lastly, it rained.

我知道你还是默默地守护着我。

181207

went out with the rest yesterday. i was late =x paiseh paiseh(sorry all). ate long john's. rush rush rush. then went to queue for tickets. apparently, the movie we wanna watch was kinda sold out(sorry shigeng) so we watched another instead. i shant tell u all what show we watched anyway. go figure.


then hw, dajie, yc and da ge were left. the others left for home etc. i couldnt finish my mcflurry in time so i gave it to da ge to finish for me. took the mrt down to city hall to meet up with jy and rushed to marina square to catch victoria junior college choir carolling. so wonderful~ so brilliant~ and i saw quite a number of our tksians there who got into vjc. awesome performance! but the crowd werent that enthusiatic at marina square.

jy and i then made our way to esplanade slowly but we were still early -.- waited for them to start. cant believe i actually saw my brother conducting. a bit high ar, his hands. =x but overall, vj is still vj. mj is still mj, and mj has so much of a resemblance of tk. lol. and both choirs were awesome.

went to eat with jy and cheryl tan before heading home. some stupid thing happen but dont put the blame on me okay? get the picture right first. dont listen to your dear *** and believe whatever he said. if he is kind enough, he wouldnt have hung up on cheryl tan and pms-ed all the way. and also having the halo on his head which blinded the eyes of parents who actually believed him. and pms is not a guy thing to do. GET IT? dont ask me for hugs. u would have given me them when i was younger. somehow u arent worth to be...

okay, im harsh.

then i went home and fell asleep. the end. it's not a fairy tale anyway. it's for real.

do dreams come true?

words

words are sweet.
words are loving.
words are romantic.
words are hurtful.
words are the worse things on earth.
because it's words that send emotions into one.

they all have seen the joyful side of me. have they seen the other side?
well, have i seen the other side. have we all seen the other side of one? i think da jie understands what im saying because we fear it. it's a total different feel and it's like something we have never expected. u'll never know when your turn will come. and that's the day you'll experience horror. and i mean it.

smells great!

my neighbour is baking COOKIES!!!!!!
i want to eat them T.T

as i was speaking to da ge,
i suddenly thought of food.
LOL.
like,
kfc's bandito pocket.
bk's turkey bacon burger(forgot its name).
roxy square 2's ban mian.
sugar cane.
macdonalds' apple pie.
scoopz's ice cream.
the hawker centre opposite temasek junior college - char kway teow.
katong student hostel's hor fun.

and a lot, a lot more.
im so greedy =x
one at a time bah. if not will get fat -.-

lalala~

sore legs

hmm, yesterday went to run with bro. lol. it has been long since i've ran. let's say, after NAPFA then no more running? o.O but yesterday's run was horror. u'll never imagine how i felt after the run. lol.

we then headed to the nearby park where my bro did his pull ups. it was really funny. i dont need to go into details about this before i get whacked by him >.<

then it was the 红星大奖2007. woots~ kim jeong hoon is so handsome! his korean was superb(duh he's a korean)! and xiaozhu~~~ hahah! i was running to the comp during that erm 3 hour show, in between, during the advertisement to reply to msn -.- lol. quite fun eh, run here and there. LOL. haha! but it was quite a wreck -.-

after the show, i came back to watch the last few episodes of 转角遇到爱。so sweet~ finally they got together! haha.. from this story, there's a lot to learn. want to know what u can learn from it? go watch it and pay attention to whatever they say :D

okay, im having muscle aches now -.-
tmr we may go out. yay :D
and da ge is pro, he almost finished every single homework he have. DAM IT. time to chiong =x

sad moments are within happy moments,
dajie said this sentence is meaningful.
im so proud of it.
wahaha.

congratulations~

congratulations to the sec 4s who have been posted to their dream school~
mjc's really the second home for tksians. woots :D

JJ is coming home :D

he's coming back today. that's what he said. yay~

i've thought about it. it was me being insensitive. i apologize for that.
my way of letting people chill, is to leave them alone. that's my way.

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if u have just realized, the first post for today(161207) has no link at all. to each paragraph or anything.

this proves that, im mad and my brain is not functioning. something is seriously wrong with me.

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if i were to say i had a peaceful sleep last night, that would be inhuman and insane. why? because i didnt get one last night and i dont expect to sleep peacefully when everything is in a twirl.

only dajie saw me emo-ed that particular day(091107), ken and shigeng ''unemofied'' me. that's another word i made up. that was the only time i emo-ed so much i guess. and now, again. that's why sometimes i prefer school. it brings joy no matter how sucky the studies are. i miss the laughter, i miss the joy. there aint no tears, but sorrows. emo isnt good i know. BUT WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS WORLD AND WHAT IN THE WORLD IS UP WITH ME?!

who's up for carols on the 18th? free. esplanade. mjc performing. cheryl anne's leaving on that day.

as i munched on my hotdog this morning, something struck me with no apparent reason. children and parents should get along well. children should tolerate whatever their parents do, especially when their parents are of the olden age. they tend to nag much more. parents on the other hand should be understanding. they should know why their children do this and that. firstly, their children arent going through what they went through when they were young. their children is experiencing life in a much more ''luxurious'' manner. that's why nowadays, children tend to be more demanding(no offence).

forget the crap i just wrote. it came out with no reason at all.

why and what's wrong?
ask yourself.
who's yourself?
the owner of this blog, duh.

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last night's sleep was a horror. I COULDNT SLEEP.
dajie will say this, ''cause im back from US and u miss me too much. that's why u cant fall asleep :D''

LOL. hahah that's just something i made up anyway. seriously, i rolled in bed for long. i got up to read then i tried going back to sleep again but it was to no avail. dam it. so i took my comforter, spread it out on the floor and wrapped myself with the other half. it's quite big u see. haha, felt like a bandito pocket -.-

the floor was hard but i didnt feel much of coldness. took some time to fall sleep anyway. *yay!* i was awoke by my maid who was shocked to see me sleeping on the floor. and i fell back into lalaland. seems like when u are sleeping, the time passes fast. i was awoke, again, by my brother. he was speaking LOUDLY downstairs, announcing to the whole 'world' that his dear sister was sleeping on the floor. it was continued by my dad who called me mad and crazy -.- such 'tender, loving' family. ^^

sarcastic, spastic.

yea, and i woke up with quite an ache -.- my legs were numbed in fact. wonder how i slept, hmmm.

today's a freaking warm day. brings about heat in people. yea.. and some chocolate my bro gave me to eat. it's a chocolate ball with little chocolate balls inside. tasted like chocolate but it tasted like tissue too -.-

my brain is senile.
hope not.
im only 15,
going on sweet 16 :D

w580i

i forgot to go check out the phone i want at singtel! DAMN IT.
good chance to ask dajie out, wahaha =p

and, apparently my friendster has 5 CHERYLS. all 5 of them didnt put their surnames -.- hard time finding which cheryl is which. lol.

DAJIE IS BACK :D

YAY! DAJIE IS FINALLY HOME SWEET HOME AFTER A FREAKING DAM LONG 12 DAYS OVERSEAS AT SOMEWHERE ON THE OTHER SIDE OF EARTH!

i miss you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much :D
this is so wrong because she's a girl BUT I DONT CARE! because she's dajie ^^ and next year, she gonna dream again -.-

now we can go out and shop! wait till we finish our homework that is. loads and loads of them~ piling up on my table~ dont wanna do it~ but still have to do it T.T

went to the library to return the book titled 'Fireworks'. borrowed another 2 books. some were quite interesting and they still dont have 'Summer Boys' =( i so wanna read that book. cheryl anne knows why :D wahaha.

hate it when my mom's on a winning streak.
xiao zhu is so darn cute =p

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hi again :D

i cant believe i spent the whole of TODAY watching 转角遇到爱. in fact, i've borrowed the series from cheryl anne, just that i have not watched it yet (sorry =x).

quite nice, watched like 8 or 9 episodes for today. wonder when's the next time i gonna continue. hahahah. but i have to finish it before school starts. must return you see. wahaha.

i've finished the last story in the book 'Fireworks'. recap~
first one was in a club as she celebrates her 18th birthday. the guy of her dreams came to find her(woots) after so many years(heart melts..).
second, hmmm. the girl was suppose to have fling with a foreigner but to end up with her bff's brother(10 years indeed). it happened at the beach :D
third was in the woods.. yea. woods. camping. boy waited for 6 summer camps(wow!).
last one was also at the beach, under the stars. sweet things =)

i wonder if those are true -.- because it cant be. wahahhaa. it's fiction!

dajie's coming home soon ^^
someone's birthday is coming up~
the days seem slow,
at the same time, they seem fast.

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YAY! DAJIE IS COMING HOME SOON!!!!!!! :D

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today is such a cold day. the morning wind/breeze was so chilly. it had been raining since morning till around 3pm or so. tried to do homework but i didnt. i highlighted the points from cheryl anne's notes and did about 4 to 5 pages of geog e. notes. it was then i realized, my markers arent with me. !!!

so i stopped writing my notes and started on the book that i've borrowed yesterday at the library. 'Fireworks' is the title. 4 stories in a book. quite interesting huh? it is. superb-ly interesting. gosh. they are all love stories anyway. instead of the word 'sparks' being used, 'fireworks' is. guess to create much more of an atmosphere and also, more tension(i think it's the word to use).

the stories are indeed wonderful. but why must they french kiss?! grrr. and why the description? arggh. but still the stories' nice :D please dont be mistaken or anything. i know teenagers' minds run wild. and i mean, really wild.

so yea, you're fine now. i hope. everything should be all right as it seems to be.

one was in a club on her birthday.
one was at the beach.
one was in the woods.
what's the last one?

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it's the 12th of decemeber 2007(121207). yay -.-

cold morning, very nice to sleep isnt it? lol.
much more homework to be completed.
finally i get to eat porridge.

you arent feeling all right are you?
i dont know what to say, u know.
soon, it'll be a big, huge balloon,
and one day, it'll explode.

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today, i went to the library to do some homework with some friends. it had been long since i had lunch with cheryl anne. hahaha. poor girl, she still has training tmr.

hmm, some things are not meant to be said here so i'll just stop.

sorry dajie,
for not coming online again today.
maybe i'll come tmr.
hope u'll still come online :D

grand piano

i would love to play on a grand piano someday.



at ps yesterday, saw a number of them. prices start from $20k+ onwards. T.T

found from the net :D
hope to play it someday, night all!
sweet dreams(:

话

有的话，不知道比知道比较好。

从才华横溢出新秀写下来的，
爱，是义无反顾。
爱，是生死相与。
爱，是风雨共渡。

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it's raining, it's pouring, the old man is snoring(is this right? -.-)

lol. but it IS raining. most probably we gonna get a wet christmas this year =x the day that singapore snows, will be the day that a miracle will happen. happy waiting for that day :D

piano lesson was T.T today. lol. doesnt mean that i really cried -.- sight reading sucks.

went to plaza sing. to find my brother,jy and cheryl tan. took such a freaking long time to search for them. found them in the food court *at last! zzz* bought chicken rice. it has been a long time since i've ate chicken rice ever since i've returned from australia. or maybe like, even before school ended? or during truncated. hmmm. BUT THAT STALL RIPPED ME OFF OF $3.50! stupid me. it was like WOW, a big plate. then u look at it, one small 'pile' of rice, 6 slices of chicken + one skin without meat(it was fats instead) and lastly, 2 slices of cucumber. done. might as well go to hawker centre to eat. cheap and better tasting o.O

chopin inspired me! HE DID. oh goodness!!!! rachmaninov had huge hands! forget about playing your pieces man. i love chopin~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ poor guy who passed away at the age of 39. sounds wrong. sounds like im stalking a man who had already died -.- and im not.

let's have a cold shower :D

sry dajie for not coming online today,
tmr im not coming online too =x
i'll see you when u are back home okay?

blog's birthday(:

my blog's birthday is coming, real soon. not say a month or anything. but soon :D
a sweet day to remember in fact. gonna be one year old! wahahaha, i love you so.

the rain's here and gone. woots. it's coming back again for sure.

theory still bores me.

what's gone over me

i still rmb pri 4. the time i worked hard just to get into EM1 stream. that was the only time. the rest were plain slack.

now? hah. i dont get the motivation, nor the spirit. why? cause im not telling myself that.

DAMN EMO-NESS.

dajie told u to smile didnt she? so do it. the sun's shining brightly now.

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it's raining again~
and my brother just let me hear 'walk away' lol
and 'your guardian angel' acoustic version. it sucks totally. all the wrong pitching -.- gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross.

cant believe my brother likes certain acoustic versions that sound so horrible.

i cant tan without having the sun shining high up in the sky. it has been raining almost everyday. grrr. and the study days, from 3 days become 2 days and now 1. lol.

theory bores me.

hmmm,
it's just hmmm.
i thought of something last night.
apparently, i dont remember what it is.
-.-
im so senile.

choir

hmm, let's see. dajie came online today :D she comes in for a while to talk to me. haiz. she brings life in fact. in the sense, brings life into me. now i understand what she means, when da ge and i were not in singapore. now even with da ge in singapore but working and her in USA, it seems like both are not here at all.

yong kiong smsed me. it had been quite some time since i've talked/conversed with him. grats for being the chairman of your school's choir :D he told me that his school choir had been having practices lately due to christmas carolling. hmmm

well, it made me reminisce the past when choir had practices during the december holidays. and how much we dreaded it. but one thing, it brought laughter and joy. it bonded us and the times we had in choir were fantabulous.

as compared to nowadays, we stayed as one as we seem. who knows what's happening within? then it'll start with one person who changed it all. who's that person? everyone knows.

oh, i just miss the past few weeks or even months we had in 2006. the time when the seniors were still here. we sang the songs we used to sing. do we sing them now? no. i wish to sing them, i really do. as in the past, we sing with our voices aloud. i still rmb the time mdm goo sang with us, they were the songs we sang during 'Vivace'. etc.

this is getting so emo. im sorry.

yea,
the past was memorable.
someone told me something but i forgot what it was.
do you know what it is?

btw, happy birthday :D

aussie trip 4th day

this is the 4th day at gold coast, brisbane. we went to movie world for excitement, fun and more pictures were taken. enjoy :D

me at movie world. yay~

it was this.

then this.

and lastly this. woots~

batman's tower. dare to sit?

daffy and sylvester. sylvester ran after tweety when tweety appeared. lol. bad cat =x

shrek in 4-D! woots~

me inside shred 4-D. hehehe

shrek's house!

what's this picture about? erm, a car and me XD

scooby doo's spooky coaster ride. i got a neck ache after it -.-

the police academy show =)

the entertainer before the show started

he's doing some weird dance, quite a funny guy =x

WILD WILD WEST :D

down they went~

batman's car

harry potter :D

merry go round. i didnt take it. my mom, aunt and bro did =x

quick! flag for the bus!

what do u call this pig?

the next few pictures are pictures of the parade. enjoy them :D

parade ends here. lol =p

scooby doo & gang :D

bugs bunny & tweety :D

who's this guy? i kinda forgot -.-

me and willy wonka

us in willy wonka's shop :D

what's this group? erm, justice league? i have no idea in fact =x

hehe. she's pretty. LOL

my aunt, mom. bro and i

carol and her husband with us outside movieworld before we left :D

hard rock cafe :D

chicken drumlets and wings

our dinner at hard rock cafe.

me at the beach in gold coast at night. woots :D

bro, me, mom. on our way back to the hotel.

yea, that's what i did for the whole of the 4th day at gold coast. it was simply tiring. the night there was horrible though. teenagers everywhere. smoking. drinking. lol. back to the hotel for a good rest(:

christmas is a day of wonders,

hope so.