after like a few days of blogger being koay, it went back to its horrible state and now it's much more horrible. things have been happening and i cant keep up to the pace.
sometimes i believe that staying strong will help me get through everything but sometimes staying strong doesnt benefit at all. this sucks man. it really does.
1 month. will i survive?
i spoke to karyl online and she's quite a motivator. and that's very nice of her in fact. i do hope that i can really do like how i did in primary 4, amazed myself, amazed everyone who thought that i couldnt do it. i still remember that feeling but it disappeared the very next week and almost ruined everything.
as we grow older, things dont seem to be as pure and clear as we thought they do. now, the world is beginning to get scary.
wow, it's fast. august is here, national day is almost over. the parade's over, the fireworks' over, the crowd's gone. soon everything will come to an end. im sure of it.
I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round And now I think that I've got it all down And as I say it louder I love how it sounds Cause I'm not taking the easy way out Not wrapping this in ribbons Shouldn't have to give a reason why...
It's NO SURPRISE I won't be here tomorrow I can't believe that I stayed till today Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow But I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISE
It came out like a river once I let it out When I thought that I wouldn't know how Held onto it forever just pushing it down Felt so good to let go of it now Not wrapping this in ribbons Shouldn't have to give a reason why
It's NO SURPRISE I won't be here tomorrow I can't believe that I stayed till today There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow There's nothing here in this soul left to say Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow God know we tried to find an easier way Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow But I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISE
Our favorite place we used to go The warm embrace that no one knows The loving look that's left your eyes That's why this comes as no, as NO SURPRISE
If I could see the future and how this plays out I bet it's better than where we are now But after going through this, it's easier to see the reason why
It's NO SURPRISE I won't be here tomorrow I can't believe that I stayed till today Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow But I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISE
The kiss goodnight, it comes with me Both wrong and right, our memories The whispering before we sleep, just one more thing that you can't keep Our favorite place we used to go The warm embrace that no one knows The loving look that's left your eyes But I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISE
im using the html to blog. lol. i cant stand it anymore. i dont know what's wrong with blogger. by the way, what a cool date it is today! 070809! cool cool. and today's national day parade. it was so-so but archery was fun. though i couldnt control my bow well neither do i aim well. i ate a lot today. seriously a lot. i can feel the carbohydrates accumulating. oh man! shucks.
as said in the previous post, life has been tough and still is. people may think im just happy all day, no. you dont know what's going on in my mind do you? hahahaa no one knows. no one can know either. it's totally locked out.
the stress is piling up. people are mugging hard, im still going on easy and free. haiz, i dont know what to say okay? i really dont know.
i've noticed something, really. it's super obvious. it has shown me that it is almost non-existing already. what can i do? what can i say? i've been watching all these times, observing, listening. im just going to sit and continue to watch the show.
